My situation makes me sad. My insecurities make me sad. I shouldnt be sad. I shouldnt be thinking about him. I dont like anything about him. I dont like his looks, personality, voice or background. When he does talk to me he sounds bored. If im around him, i feel nervous and tense. I dont want him to go away; hes great at what he does. We dont need to talk. I just need to get over myself.