He doesn't have much conversation with me, which i get and which is what i want, but i can't help wonder why. Is it possible that he can sense something is going on? He doesn't hang around me or talk to me for any necessary reason.
Things are becoming weird, but not for him, for me. Today was the first time i actually found myself feeling uncomfortable because we both sit in the same cafeteria and we sit literally feet away from each other. I'm completely aware of his existance and it's kind of frightening. I don't know how to describe it. I think he feels the same way too after what happened today. I was in the lunch room alone and when he came in he was looking for a place to sit and he didn't see me. When he noticed me he immediately moved away. I didnt make any eye contact but it was so obvious. I felt so bad at the same time because i dont want him to feel unwelcome. Thats not what i want, at all. I dont know why but just being around him is causing me discomfort.
The only time we speak is to say hello and i say it because were so close to each other that it would be just plain rude to stay quiet. I don't want us to be friends but not enemies either. I dont know how to feel or make myself not feel discomfort.
I will admit that i fear that he will sense the tension as well.
Or im just overthinking everything.
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