the dreams continue. im ashamed. the only way i can not be more attracted to him is by thinking about all the negative things that have passed us. the way he made me angry. his words, his actions. the way he responded to me after i tell him off. it may not be the right way (ive prayed to God and gave him the problem) but this helps me too. it also keeps me in reality because obviously he and i would not be a good couple if things start off in the wrong way. none of those things are desirable in a relationship, therefore it keeps me from thinking about the slight possibility of it working out. he's not right for me. i will not pursue it. he doesnt like me. he is in a relationship. im getting over it.