He creeped into my every day thoughts, my scenes, my dreams at night. And yet i dont understand why. I had to convince myself that i shouldnt search his name to find his social media accounts. I am honesty so pathetic. I keep thinking about all the things he said that i dont understand. Im debating if i should work christmas eve just so i spend time with him. Why would i even take that into consideration? especially when he doesnt have feelings like i do. I am so pathetic. Ive started praying to God about my future husband and i havent received any word or feeling or revelation that he is it. I want God to lead me to someone who he thinks is right for me. Not on my damm emotions which carelessly disregard my logic and reality. I want to be with someone who likes me, and cares about me - and shows it in the right way.
This is what makes me sad.
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