My Faith.

Last night I felt like God was talking to me and I got the motivation I need. I know that the Lord has everything in control. I have given this issue to Him and I have asked Him to do whatever it is that He needs to do, to do his will. I don't want my messy, irrational, unexplainable feelings to get in the way of His will. His will is perfect, his plan is better than mines. I may want something now and not even know why I want it, but I do know that God is more than me. He gives me strength each and every day. The preacher made it clear that God's glory is all around us ; when we go to the mirror and look we see God's great creation. & that made me so happy. The preacher said that even though we go through things, God knows why and God is always with us. 

It gave me so much happiness, so much relief, so much security to know that the Lord knows why I am having these feelings, why I want to hide from Him, why I want to hide from my feelings, why I feel so inadequate, why I feel so insecure, why I feel like I'll never find anyone to be in a loving, committed, Christ-like relationship, why I feel like I'm just never good enough. But God used the preacher to show me that Christ believes I'm good enough because he created me. Even the preacher mentioned that no matter if I'm thinking about my future spouse or my job. Which are for me, enough though he didn't know that. 

God is so good. God has everything in control and I just want God to know that he can do whatever it is he needs to do, in order to have His will done. 

I know that this man isn't what I expected to like, at all. And I know that God doesn't make mistakes. I plan on not trying to figure out why I am attracted to this man, that's up to God. I just want God to do his will and give me strength every single day to do what is right. I want God to let me know that I'm on the right track, and not let me look like a fool. Give me strength, courage, wisdom so that I can do what His will is.