im so sad. & im sad about so many things. i just want to crawl into my bed and die (metaphorically). i dont want to deal with any of this. i dont want to deal with my unstable, incomprehenable feelings. i dont want to deal with question of why ME? I dont want to feel pathetic for feeling like this. i dont want to feel anything. i was having a great day --- i dont need to fall in the hole of "greatest

mysteries of life: why the fuck do i like him?" i dont. im so over myself.