wouldn't have it any other way.

i have taken notice that he's not the same around me as he was when we first worked together. but, i remember what he's said to me and although i have let it go- i keep it as a reminder that anything can happen. if i let him get to me he could pass the line like he has in the past. people dont change just because. 

he was always joking around with me but now i understand that its better to be nice, polite & distant so that there arent any issues. im so afraid of issues coming up and i dont want that to happen ever again. i guess i thought about this as the new intern was introduced as i was before. 

i will admit i still have feelings for him and every once in a while if i hear something or see something, they will flare up. but i dont want my moods or emotions to dictate anything in my life. 

still like him, still dont know why. i just try to deal with it. i guess now, i just try not to acknowledge them as much as i did before this.