late thoughts.

although im not in bed awake i am having those same emotional thoughts that keep me over thinking and upset and crazy about him. 

i admitted to myself that i care about him. i do. i dont know to what extent but i do. i thought about how i really wanted him to say goodnight to me but in the end i was pretty pathetic and i just needed to go home. 

i did talk to him twice today. but then i understood that he already has posted me as a difficult person (which i am) but its just hard to acknowledge. 

i keep asking myself questions and replaying situations and hoping that ill get some relevation. some stupid ass relevation so i can feel anxious and desperate free. 

im so dissapointed that this whole crush thing hasnt left already. really. how long do i have to deal with this???