i am getting better at this whole crush thing. im just focusing on other things.

but, me thinking about how im getting better makes me think about him more, which defeats the initial purpose. soooooo

thankful

for my job

for my family

for my body

for my five senses

for my neighborhood

for those who surround me

for having money to spend

for not being stressed

for not being tied down

for not having kids 

for knowing whats right and wrong 

for the internet 

for clean streets

for accessibility to a hospital

for health insurance

for cute sandals

for having curly hair

for not being obsessed with money

for my love of books

for my love of the written word

for having an amazing bestfriend

for going to college and getting my BA

most of all. im thankful for Jesus.

iwhen God presents me with the one He wants me to be with then i will do so.

consistency isn't key?

ive been going to the gym for a little over 2 months and at first i was losing weight - and now i stopped.

i know my eating habits suck - its very hard to change since my body loves routine but i AM trying. my next thing is to stop having extra coffes and juices. i always have a coffee in the morning, during lunch, and after i hit the gym.  my improvement today? no coffee after gym.

but i feel like im doing everything else right.

i get at least 6 hours of sleep.
i am not stressed out (at all).
i am always getting up and walking around in my office (to avoid sitting too much).
im constantly changing up my workouts with various machines, stretching and using light weights.


its really hard. all i want is 10 pounds.

please Lord give me strength.